Holding Patience for Allah (Subhanahu Wa Ta'alaa)

"Oh my ALLAH!"
What a test u've put me into!
My life-wave is now at the trough


I'm confined, living like a dead
every moment, every second...

Sometimes losing my strength,
Sometimes shedding tears!
Falling on the ground,
Sweating in the fear

"I can't tolerate Oh ALLAH, I can't bear!"
(says my heart shedding tear!)

I confess, I never acted good
But now I really want to...
Please Allah give me chance
Give the chance for hedayaah

I wanna get relief & forever before you
I wanna bow my head
I want some peace to rest on "bed"
I don't wanna live like a dead!

Let my past just be faded
I REGRET...
please give me the chance for Hedayaah!

I know ALLAH, You're so merciful
You don't have ending grace
Your heavens is what I wanna embrace
Relieve me out of such painful race..

Ameen....